and i dont wanna hide it anymore.

watch ghost of girlfriends past.
its super super super awesome! :D

had been going to the gym since friday.
after gym swimming :D
trying to maintaning that habit.
so instead of becomeing fat during the holidays, i work harder! :D

so yeah. i got nothing else to say.
bye peeps

/edited.
changed song.
remember the lyrics?
remember what you once said?
oh crap.
who am i kidding.
seesh



and to never be afraid that I would fall

and poof*
here i am.

/edited.
and i want a DSLR camera.
any suggestions or advice anyone?
plus plus plus a fucking E75 or N97! =O


theses phone so fucking nice cans!?!?!?!
=O



and through my tears, i sang along

Yesterday,
dint go school.
cause got the EEP course at republic poly.
morning went to RP with nazhifah, kaiquan and firdaus.
firdaus was the one living cloest to the school and yet he was late.

then skip skip skip.
course start
then skip skip skip again.

then got break! :D
first break went to the library and check out.
got pool table siol.

then went back course.
skip skip skip

second break! :D
ate with ishaq, nazi and tuhin.
after eating went library to play pool.
ppl say i not bad siol.
so darn long nvr play le.
ishaq was darn smart la.
hes like ask ppl to put the hands in to hole dont let the ball fall in.
then can play non-stop.
LOL.

then play halfway mr lim saw us.
then he joined in. he say dont play cheat cause we wearing uniform.
so he treated us a few games.
LOL!

then break end.
skip skip skip.

course end.
went to play pool with ishaq tuhin and mr lim again
LOL!
played 2 games i think.
then we saw those RP student playing pool cheating too
LOL!
only mr lim that pure :x

Today,
School sucks.

Chem,
teacher went through the paper.
apprently, only a few ppl find the paper difficult.
and sadly, im one of them :(
teacher says the paper considered very easy.
think have to go back for extra lessons during the holidays.

MT,
teacher nvr come.
got some exam paper to do.
dint do. fell asleep.

Recess,
ate with nazhifah.
nth exciting happened.

After school,
went cwp to walk with madeline.
then, the rest go see our blog larhs.
lazy to retype everything again.

then came back school for PET rocket :D
fun lehs.
second time when shoot the rocket, whole body went as in WET wet.
then amirah keep saying that i pee-ed in my skirt.
wanted to change my skirt.
but apprently my short looks more misleading.
LOL!

After PET rocket,
went home with aliah.
and here i am! :D



but he told me, we still be friends.

today is a very shocking day
SHOCKING. as in shocking shocking i tell you =O

Firstly,
my results are shocking.
though i expected most to fail.
but it ain't that bad :x
im more of regretful.
some papers just 1 to 2 more marks then i pass.
shoot!
though i did better than some people in my class.
i think im quite contented =O
though my dad say : never be contented with what you have.
so, im not contented.
*shugs.* idk what am i talking bout.

btw, why is so many ppl asking me along to celebrate our failures?
what do i look like? a failure? LOL!
jk.

After School,
told dad my results.
its better for him to know now than on meet the parents day.
later he start screaming at me in front of the teachers or whatever sort.
was expecting him to swear his ass off at me or even whack my or so on.
ite, he just nag nag nag.
and only for half and hour! =O
don't know what possessed him :x
thats another shocking news

Home,
watched grease with sister.
totally awesome. though the quality sucks.
but what can you expect.
i have been watching the same disc ever since im p3?
gosh! so antique
im addicted to the show and songs again.
elvis presley, bee gees
whooh.
their way of dressing is so darn cheesy.
i totally looooooove it!

Currently,
i think im going to post some of those pictures taken on sunday.
went to my cousin carnival at ACS international.
oh oh oh.
guess who i saw?
mr kok! =O
went by to say hello :D
LOL!
he said his daughter study there man!
rich asses! =O

anyway pictures!
btw i dont have most of them, so mostly its those that i campwhored.
cause i sprayed my hair.
first time a foriegn colour on my head, so went a little nuts bout them
haha.
so, if you dont like my face, i suggest you stop scrolling down :D
its gonna be all of my faces :D








its a milk chocolate cookie :D
it taste as good as it looks man! :D

p.s. i know its crazy to post so many pictures at one go.
but im just too lazy to keep them in my computer :D

and and and pictures taken on the day itself will be uploaded once i got the pictures :D




It all comes down to me and you.

Morning,
overslept again.
madeline gave wake up call. again
LOL!
so did the e-learning crap.
on and on.
dint finish it anyway

Afternoon,
had crappy cca.
met madeline in school.

CCA,
played sherrade (idk how to spell) xP
me and madeline like the most hyper ones there la.
anyhow shout.
got one, madeline was like pointing at her eyes and then at my shoe.
in like : EYES! SHOE! YOU LOOKING AT MY SHOE!
LOL!
ite, its the colour of my sole -.-
LOL!

After CCA,
went civic for mac.
then went cwp walk walk.
like walk halfway, the fire alarm rang.
everyone was like continue shopping like nobody's business like that.
then me and madeline kept laughing.
can't remember why too.
LOL
then madeline was like : the safest thing to do is to follow the security guard!
then we followed -.-
then like outside mini toons then we realised there are a few more security guards running towards the fire.
LOL!
im like: follow the security guard towards the fire?
LOL!
then we keep cannot make up our minds to continue to follow the security guards or towalk away from them.
so we just continue to walk like nobody's business and kept laughing.
LOL!
the whole thing like ajoke like that
we like walked to and fro mini toons like 4 to 5 times?
just to decide to follow the security guards or not
LOL!

oh ya idk who updated the 2/1 blog.
found those pictures awesome
those were the day when we were all young and cute xD
LOL!



Every step I take retreats,

Today,
kinna over-slept for the e-learning shit this morning.
dint know till madaline called me.
LOL!

so do do do.
i dont see for what we do la.
we can do twice. the most first time submit the answers, then check.
copy the answers and do again -.-
i only found out i can do that when i did my chemistry.
first attempt all wrong. LOL!
second, full marks >:D

Sunday,
anyway, nazifah finally uploaded the pictures on sunday a.math extra lesson thingy.
idk how to put it :P
anyway, pictures.

his hat is like darn disturbing.
WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS
LOLOLOL!
and he said he purchased it for like $199+
wtf. LOL!

so anyway.
im really bored. so might as well post those pictures tha nazi posted.
blah blah


amirah HUGEEEEEE eraser.
really huge i tell you.
dont believe, see this :

see! its bigger than my head! =O

then nazhifah's random pictures time.
LOL!



after mr rizal teach, the rest went to eat.
went home with sister.
blah.

Yesterday,
sports carnival.
darm boring. dont have that fun feeling.
stupid nazhifah record my totally wonderful singing.
i dint know till she told me larhs.
no wonder she keep say : eh sing lehs very bring.
no wonder
GOT MOTIVE ONE D:
garh!

then zhen xing owe me things dont want give D:
then i hit him, he start counting again.
end up kicking him.
LOL!
then chase chase chase. scream scream scream.
somehow vikrum came into the picture.
after like what it seemed like forever,
i dont want run already.
hide at the classroom door. wait for zhen xing to come to open.
somehow!
some sabo kia. scream-warn zhen xing and vikrum that im there.
so i poped out. chase again
-.-
fuckers~
zhen xing still owe me! =O

After School,
so anyway, after school, went pizzahut with madeline.
eat and laugh non-stop.
darn funny larhs.
after eating went for a walk for out food to digest.
walk around cwp for like 4 to 5 times?
then we went kiddy palace, saw 2 sec 1's looking at barbie dolls.
after walking 4 round like that, we went back kiddy palace, they are still there! =O
LOL!
we're like wtf.
so long. almost 1 hour +
then madaline went inside kiddy palace play with the guns.LOL!
madaline was like, take the gun and at me.
pew pew pew.
LOLOLOL!

we walked every level larh.
then realised we dint go cold storage.
we like walk in,then got some aunties giveing out free samples of chocolates.
i said i dont want, then she forced one onto my hand.
then i just take and said : orh thanks.
then i walked away!
LOL! then madaline was like laughing. cause she saw the auntie face.
cause they expect me to buy the cocolates after sampling. then i just walk away
LOL!
retarded larhs.
LOL!

omg idk how to explain it larh. but its darn funny.



but now im only falling apart.







Everytime your near.

YAY. TODAY IS OFFICIALLY THE LAST DAY OF MID-YEAR!

i dont think im happy though.
surely have to study study at home.
then mum knew todays my last paper.

shes like : today last paper already right? how was it?
im like : not good. but i think i will only fail my maths and science.
shes like: oh. okay not bad. at least better than last term.
im like: eh no. i meant maths and science leans a.math, e.math physcs and chemistry.
shes like: =O *shock

LOL!
but i think i roughly might do better than last term. i think. hope? erm wish.
LOL!
i got no confidence man!

Today,
last exam.
alos the suckiest one.
its like fucking hard.
i dont even understand wtf the qns is saying.
and to add on im like having a cold, fever and terrible stomach ache.
not forgetting cold.
as in freezing cold.

did i mention that im sitting directly below the air-con.
my papers and fringe can swing with the wind of the air-con la.
thats how cold it is.

After Exam,
so after exam immediately left school. alone.
everyone happen to have meeting -.-
went out. saw madeline and her friends.

chat chat. then her bus came. so she go with her friends.
i went library to return my sister's books.
going back to interchange saw madaline again! =O

then went to mos with then.
for breakfast? lunch?
it was like 10.30 ++

so anyway, went mos.
saw xinyi working there. haha.
then madaline kachiao kachiao (disturb/irritate) her.
then we chat chat laugh laugh blah blah
went home.

Currently,
crapping with madaline now.
haha :D

toodles.

btw, im so not used for having nth to do now.
-.-



even though your already gone

im so bored to continue studying already.
numbers, formulas, blah blah
everything suck in my head already.
so irritated.
grah

anyway, went library cause nazhifah said mr rizal will be there?
so went.
and mr rizal is like late -.-
2.45 then sms amirah saying he just woke up
wow man wow -.-
so blah blah blah
nazhifah took picture of him.
its like darn LOL.
shall post once i get it.
nazhifah send send SEND =O

done then blah blah blah.
then went home with sister.

boring day i know.

anw i found a quiz in hsien nan blog :D

A is for ALIAH
1) Do you love this person?
sure. shes my lesbian partner :D
2) Is this person ever your enemy?
think so. but thats like sec 1? we are all grown up :D
3) Would you hug this person?
yeah sure. les partner mahs.

B is for BEL ( isabel? ) LOL
1) What do you think of this person?
friendly, funny. but darn hyper at times.
2) Favourite colour?
idk.
3) Every dance with her? where? why?
no. no. no. that would be... lesbian-iny

C is for CYNTHIA!
1) What do you think fo this person?
totally awesome :D
2) Where does this person live?
singapore.
3) How old is he/she?
Sweet 15

D is for DERRICK
1) How long have you know him/her?
idk.
2) Do you like this person?
sure. i love all of my friends :D
3) Do you hate this person?
no. i dont hate. i think :x

E is for EMEL
1) Have you met his/her parents?
her mum?
2) Worst think bout this person?
very unpredictable and irritating :x
3) Best think bout this person?
totally fun person to be with.

F is for FAIZ
1) Have you ever dated this person?
no. eew no. :P
2) When is the next time you will see him/her?
idk. when im very unlucky.
3) Do you go to school with him/her?
no. never will also.

G is for GEORGINA
1) Have you hear this person sing?
dont think so?
2) What is his/her pet name?
idk. ppl dont name their fishes i guess.
3) Will he/she repost this?
dont think so. she dont blog.

H is for HSIEN NAN
1) What grade is he/she in?
grade 9? same as me.
2) Is he/she your best friend?
no. we always fight since like... primary school?
3) Ever done something illegal with this person?
i always abuse him. LOL!

I is for IZHAR
1) What is this person favourite food?
idk.
2) How did you meet this person?
I used to call him ah wang when im sec1 :x
3) Ever done something illegal with this person?
i dont think so.

J is for JUN KIAT
1) Any sibilings?
idk. i think a sister?
2) Do you know his/her favourite song?
no.
3) What will you say is he/she confessed if he/she likes you?
i give this face : -.-

K is for KIM SIONG
1) how old are you when you first met?
13.
2) Do you like him/her as a friend?
Yeah my kor lehs :D
3) Would you go to Disney Wold with this person?
if hes willing to pay. LOL!

L is for LENON.
1) Is this person older than you?
yeah.
2) Is this person single?
i guess so.
3) How many times do you talk to him in a week?
i scream almost everytime i have the chance to.

M is for MADELINE
1) How old were you when you two first met?
15.
2) What's his/her pet name?
idk.
3) Ever dance with this person?
no. but i think i can imagine it. LOL!

N is for NAZHIFAH
1) How old were you when you two first met?
13! :D
2) Do you like this person?
i LOVE her! xD
3) Ever done something illegal with this person?
its between us two.... =O LOL!

O is for OBAMA
1) Are you related?
no. LOL!
2) Could you live with this person?
no. but i wish i could =O
3) What school do they go to?
idk. LOL!

P is for PRASSANNA
1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person?
dont think so.
2) How bout a sleepover?
no. later she catch me for snoring. LOL!
3) Does this person have a job?
yes. POLISH-ER :x LOL!

Q is for QU ZHEN XING
1) Are you related?
classmates. and a person who owe me alot of things
2) Whats's his or her pet's name?
idk. alex? LOL!
3) What would you do if he/she confessed to you?
i will be like : fuck off.

R is for RAHAYU
1) Have you ever heard this person sing?
yeah. i think so.
2) Will he/she repost this?
idk.
3) When does this person look best.
idk? LOL!

S is for SYAHIRAH
1) Is this person taller than you?
i hope not.
2) Do you enjoy spending time with her?
totally.
3) Is this person your friend?
fav junior too! :D

T is for TAVIN
1) What grade is this person in?
JC 1?
2) Do you like this person?
sure. i love all my friends :D
3) Do he/she live close to you?
Kinna.

U is for UMBRELLA. LOL.
1) What is this person favourite food?
rain.
2) Do you love this person?
no. i love the rain more.
3) Do he/ she live close to you?
yeah. he live beside my shoe rack.

V is for VIKRUM
1) What is this person favourite food?
idk.
2) How do you meet this person?
classmates since sec 1?
3) Do you trust him/her?
no. i dont think so.

W is for WILREN
1) Is this person loud or quiet?
loud. darn loud.
2) Have you seen this person dance?
yeah. i've seen him doing a moonwalk. ( which is not even close ) :x
3) What colour eyes does this person have?
cock colour

X is for XIN YI
1) How old have you met this friend?
since erm. p6?
2) Whats his/her pet name?
idk.
3) When does this person look best?
idk too. LOL!

Y is for YUSUF
1) How old were you when you first met this person?
sec 1
2) What do you think of this person?
always spit at me -.-
3) Have you heard this person sing?
hell yeah.

Z is for ZUBAIDAH
1) Does this person have MSN?
yes.
2) What is his/her favourite sport?
idk.
3) When did you last se this person?
during recess at idk when.

phew. i typed everything by hand
and people who sees this please repost! :D



where do i go?

i have not been blogging for DAYS! =O
past few days got mid year.
sucks.
dont like exams.
or rather, i dont like using my brains -.-

anywayyyy,

monday
holiday.
mug a little.

tuesday
emaths paper 1 and social studies
garh.
social studies got one chapter i never study.
11 marks leh! T.T
* heart shattered *
wednesday
chemistry and geography.
geography okay okay only lorh.
chemistry hard like hell larhs
like so freaking hard.
comfirm fail.
T.T
thursday
emaths paper 2
some people say its hard.
i find it easy leh =O
die!
actually its unbelievable lah
never listen to class still find paper easy.
shit. im nervous now!
+.+
friday
physics and POA.
physics also darn hard.
POA okay okay only
but the trading, profit and loss i do half only T.T
argh.
darn lots of careless mistakes.
sucks
next monday
amaths.
sure flunk one.
unless some miracle happen.
which never will.
-.-

today
forgot to bring calculator.
nice one cynthia.
POA no calculator.
luckily POA is the second paper.
so went around asking for calculators during break.
somehow only one person lent me -.-
all also need to use.
THANKS AGAIN DERICK! :D :D :D
saved my paper man!
or else i last in POA again -.-

then sth very retarded happened.
after POA exam, find derrick to return his calculator.
returned already. walked down the stairs with nazhifah.
then somehow i slipped. ended up rolling down the stairs.
twisted my ankle =.=
fuck. now im like walking like a duck.
luckily dad fetched me.
or else i had to hop all the way home? WTF!
hopefully my ankel recover this weekend.
or else next week sports carnival cannot play :(

29 MAY MEET THE BLOODY PARENTS.
im scared x.x
both of my results and what the teachers is gonna rant bout me =O

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

anyway found a video of how typical philipinos talk
darn hilarous




is all we have to do.
its up to me and you

here to post again!
i know.
tmr's the first day of mid year, what am i doing here?
im very sick of studying already man.
so many things i have not catch up.
and im very scared.
omg yes. im very scared.
yet, i dont really feel the stress.
as compared to last year.

so many ppl falling sick recently,
soon its my turn.
or perhaps, its already my turn.
oh so, whatever.
random update of today.

brought bread to school :D
nutella!
its oh-so-awesome till nazhifah want half.
then of course i kindly gave her half.
then shes like complaining that the chocolate is so-very thick.
LOL!
i like thick stuffs what,
i love the rich taste of chocolate in my mouth.
shes like, its so thick that i cant taste the bread.
LOL!
thats the whole point sayang.
its wholemeal.
who wanna taste that?
hah!
then blah blah blah
stay back for english extra lesson
blah blah blah
after school, wait for nazhifah to clean the classroom with the classcomms.
oh one thing thats freaking funny.
classcomms, staying back to clear the rubbish bins
LOL!
that totally hilarious la.
so, while waiting, went toilet to find aliah.
blah blah
LOL
then she asked me if i wanna go canteen with her, im like : nahs later i missed him.
LOL!
then aliah imitate me sarcastically.
thn while she opening the door to the staircase.
boom!
he and his friends walked up.
and i think they heard me.
-.-
LOL!
asshole.
anyway, i dint really say who it is (:
i just cant seem to run away from embarrassments
blah la la.

I really love him cause he's everything I want .
He's always there for me, cares for me , loves me ..
So why did he leave me?